alone

it's graduation sunday.
and it's great, right, no.. pretty lame.
church was interesting.
because it was "grad rec. sunday"
aka we get on stage and get a book. yay. bleck.
a few grad parties this afternoon, only made it to one.
starbucks, the mall. bleck.
yay for realizing i really don't have many solid friends here.
i'm getting more excited to move away every day.
i'm ready to be by myself for once.
start over. new friends. new life. new place.
today i'll walk across that stage.
nothing will really change.
but, hey it's not about me afterall..
graduation is about your parents and grandparents
bugging you and giving you money.
it's great knowing that i'll go to project grad.
i'll go by myself and probably not fit in.
after four years of school with the same people.
i'm really rather tired of it.
i'm ready for something different.
and i'm really glad that one whole month this summer
i will see hardly any people from lil ole indep
i need time away from this town, these people, and this life.
i need an escape.
for once.. i don't want to escape with anyone from here,
i want to go alone.
i want to walk alone.
i want to sit in silence.
i don't want to be touched
or talked to.
i want to be alone.