Settling & Submitting.

Have you ever struggled with settling?

I mean, have you ever been so impatient in a decision that options that once would have been considered settling look appealing even for a moment? Lately, this has been quite the conundrum in my life. After attending 15 weddings and ridiculous amounts of wedding showers I am growing very impatient. (I know, I know. I am young. I have time. It's not like I'm running my life according to a baby clock or anything, relax and let me explain.) What I'm saying is my friends are married up, and although I'm not feeling that pressure I do find myself as a third wheel ALL the time. My friends do a very good job of making me not feel like the third wheel, and I love them for it, but boy it's getting old hanging out with married people. Most of my single friends live a lifestyle very different than mine, so the majority of my time with them seems wasteful and ridiculously stupid. (Don't get me wrong, there are exceptions to that, but they are rare. I love all of my friends, even when they are stupid.) So, back to settling...I am afraid that I will settle for someone completely mediocre, someone nice and okay. I am afraid that I will setlle for a man that does not stand up for himself, me, or our beliefs. I'm not saying that it's going to be terrible to have someone that when compared to many seems like a fine choice, I am scared to live a mediocre life. I want to live a unique, beautiful, wonderfully full life. Still, I am terrified that I will settle someday. Being aware of that fear just makes me more afraid.

For some reason, the questions I struggle with the most is...
                        where is the line between settling and submitting?

Have you ever struggled with submitting?

Oh goodness, I hope I am not the only one who fights this battle daily.Trust me when I say that I am not the type of person that feels like I have to "stick it to the man," however I do struggle with defining who has authority over me. Also, I despise being told what to do. Often, you'll find me sitting in silence when someone approaches me with a task that they believe I should complete for them. (Obviously I understand the employee-employer relationship, I am not talking about requests from my bosses.) Most days I assume that there will come a time when I have to loosen my standards, but then again I'm not so sure that I am asking too much. My wants in life seem simple to me, but still they are not necessarily the Lord's wants. I cannot assume that just because what I want seems good, that it is the Lord's will as well. So, for now, I'll continue to struggle with submitting to the Lord and I'll cross the other bridges when I get to them.