i am breaking.

its hitting me.
im actually leaving.. soon.
and im terrified and so excited.
lasts are passing by as quick as the firsts came.
friends i'll lose.. and then gain new ones.
i dont want to have to replace people..
summer.. i look towards it..
and hope i never have to say goodbye at the same time.
i saw these pictures from last summer.
and looking at them just brings me to tears.
some of my closest friends..
for three months we live, eat, and laugh together.
so many memories.
i dont want to forget.
i want to move forward with my life..
but i dont want to leave anything behind..
i am torn.
everything is hitting me at once..


one picture..in particular. i look at.. and see the biggest smile on my face. because i'm surrounded by some of my closest friends.. i miss them. i miss summer... i dont want to say goodbye in august.. but i know.. i have to.