The days...

get busier and busier.

Every moment rushing by quicker than it came.

My head is constantly spinning in circles.

Too much chaos, but still so much silence.

I have lost.

friendships, heros.

I have learned.

live long, love big, laugh hard.

I am waiting, still. 

I lay still constantly, waiting for something to come.

I have no idea what I'm waiting for, but still I wait.

I am growing.

I am falling.

How can that happen at the same time?

I do not fully understand, no one does.

My focus is to let go, for once in my life, let go.

Let go of everything I've grown to love, cherish, and live with.

I just want to live, with a smile plastered on my face.

No more hurt, no more confusion.

No more mixed emotions, no more, please, no more. 

Vacations leave me too much time to think. ugh. 

This is not me being negative.

This is me pondering in thought and attempting to put what i see to words. 

I am stuck.

I cannot breathe.

I feel confined.

I am capable, let me move.