Afraid of Dreaming.

I think I am afraid of dreaming.
Failure, disappointing loved ones, and even being uncomfortable make me nervous, but I don't think that they are the reasons I don't succeed much.
I must be afraid of dreaming.
What a terrible thing to be afraid of.
I am afraid that I am capable of doing big things. I know how easy it would be to squeak by doing the minimum in life and live simply. I just know I'm called to do something more than what I know how to do. I know I'm supposed to be challenged, but right now I'm not.
School bores me. It's not hard, and I don't normally have to work hard for decent grades. I just get lazy and let my grades drop because it gives me a challenge to pick them back up. (It's a bad habit, and a hard one to break)
A lot of people that surround me don't challenge me either. They don't force the truth on me when I don't want to hear it, and they don't really encourage me to be great. It's sad to say that about people you love, but it seems like they are content with me slacking off in everything I do. I don't want to be "that person" to someone. I don't want to watch my friends just get by, I want to see my friends change lives. I want to see a difference in them that can only be explained by the hand of God. I want people to see that in me, but I continually find myself just living, and not really being alive.

It's quite possible I'm elated from my first concert still, but I think I'm onto something. I know I love music, and I am active in it slightly. However, I know that I am not living up to what I can accomplish. I am sliding by, and I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be able to dream big, and do great things.
I'm just afraid to dream too big, and that is where I am. Stuck in mediocrity.