Identity

Today, while in church, Brian said something that really struck a chord with me...


He pointed out how our American culture is personality driven.


Our culture dwells on celebrity. People line up behind others with interesting ideals, hopes, desires, and abilities. Keeping that in mind, I realize that I struggle just as much as anyone in being a part of a following. It's so easy to line up behind politicians, celebrities, philosophies, or anything that tugs at your heartstrings. I fall into this pattern differently than most. I do not really care for politicians or their agendas. I could care less about the latest philosophical novel or how a musician started their path. I do, however, fall into another category completely. I like to line myself up behind the people that I believe in. It is so easy for me to dream of having a husband just so that I don't have to make a decision for my path alone. I can easily fathom a life of watching the people I love make decisions and fashioning my choices around theirs to make them easily fit into my life. I adore my friends, I just imagine that the most wonderful people of the world are a part of my life. It's hard for me to imagine more supportive, considerate, or encouraging friends. When I decidedly went against all I had prepared for to move home everyone, in their own time, decided that it was truly what was best for me. To seek the Lord's path in a nitty gritty old fashioned hard work kind of way, to battle through heart issues continually, and to grow was truly a better choice for me than continuing my college education. Having such wonderful people want the best for me is a blessing, but it also means I highly value their opinions and perspectives. Often I find myself seeking their wisdom before I dwell in The Word. My identity should not be found in the approval or thoughts of another human being.

Christ just is the answer. Finding my identity in Him alone is the struggle, and today I am reminded just how sinful my heart is even when it feels like it is doing all things right and good.